I have dozens of testimonies declaring who I am. The woman I am today has come a long way from innocence to maturity. There isn't words to define who I am because it's not the same by reading who I am on paper and by meeting me. Reading about who I am can give you an idea but meeting me face to face can be completely different from who u thought I was from what you read. It also depends on your own perspective and thoughts of me according to your own character. Ultimately it does take seasons to get to know someone. Be willing to receive enlightenment and YOU definitely can be a person that I can reap from. I LOVE meeting new people. I desire to be BOLD and God is my vessel working through me building me up confidence to be fruitful.
Always keep in mind that I am DEAF when you read ahead. A great way to describe someone is by how they were brought up. "It takes a whole villiage to raise a child". My family, Teachers, Friends, and everyday people. I had a stable family life, my parents are happily mar ried, we moved when the neighborhood crimes increased, and they kept me as secure as possible. They did the best as parents can do. My definition of sociality was just surface. I made friends by fitting into a huge hearing world from being in a small classroom of 3 other deaf classmates. I was 4 years old. I have been happy with being popular simply just knowing so many people by their names from all nations. Then I discovered my own creativity and gifts of dance, art, and poetry which I had some advantage for myself for friendships. I knew I missed a lot of conversations, words, wisdom, knowledge, etc, that could have build my charatcher. WORDS can bring LIFE or DEATH. I had to experience things with my other senses by SIGHT, TOUCH, TASTE, and SMELL. Without hearing words of danger, I endured it physically. I encountered things I should not have expeirenced by force, by being rebellious, and by making mistakes. It contributed to my character in a negative and a positive way. Ive been ignored, guessed, and assumed in communications. When someone finally truly understood me, it was exciting having tighter friendships. Although, thinking back, I have never truly had CLOSE friends. I can think of a few friends I have became close to for a moment but the friendships did not last beyond elementary school, middle school, or high school. Most of it was eventually exhausting, labeled, and judged. I had friends who were Deaf that I was more comfortable with, however, it was like long distance relationships, they lived all over Wisconsin and united states. I have a lot of cousins and I became very close with few of my cousins. We grew apart because of individual priorities.
I met my BEST FRIEND right after high school. My world made sense with him in it. He HEARD MY HEART. I revolved my decisions and choices upon his. Together we Grew into adulthood and established a strong relationship. Our first son Isaiah gave us ambition. We dreamt of a future of security, joy, and peace. Countless Negative influences, situations, problems, tried to define us from the beginning of our relationship. VICTORY was declared in our relationship. We were two and became ONE. Together we STILL are being transformed individually supporting, encouraging, and loving each other. All the various friendships that I have had growing up, I am truly happy with my HUSBAND and all the sadness in a friendship of a distant memory in my past is washed away.
I've got to share that I have always found ways to apply my emotions, confusion, desires, and ideas into poetry, and ART. There really was a place within for ART to bring me happiness. I LOVE to be focused and just completely realease. My heart and mind were combatiable flowing together and out through the tips of my fingers. My SONS Isaiah and Jordan have also developed various ARTISTIC skills.
When I think of the people who surrounded me while I was growing up and who I CHOOSE to surround myself with now, I am forever thankful because I would not be where I am today if I didn't experience all that I have. Both good and bad. Ironically my husband and I share so much similarities in our childhood experiences. We want to teach our children Isaiah, Jordan, and Nathan how Jesus has been a indescribable influence in our lives. Jesus has truly made a crystal clear image of where we want to go. In the midst, I strive to display GRACE.
