Who am I?

I shared "my first blog", the great inspiration led by God, with my husband and he mentioned that I should introduce myself and my family. My First Blog was to share how it originated and now this one is to share who we are.

I have dozens of testimonies declaring who I am. The woman I am today has come a long way from innocence to maturity. There isn't words to define who I am because it's not the same by reading who I am on paper and by meeting me. Reading about who I am can give you an idea but meeting me face to face can be completely different from who u thought I was from what you read. It also depends on your own perspective and thoughts of me according to your own character. Ultimately it does take seasons to get to know someone. Be willing to receive enlightenment and YOU definitely can be a person that I can reap from. I LOVE meeting new people. I desire to be BOLD and God is my vessel working through me building me up confidence to be fruitful.

Always keep in mind that I am DEAF when you read ahead. A great way to describe someone is by how they were brought up. "It takes a whole villiage to raise a child". My family, Teachers, Friends, and everyday people.  I had a stable family life, my parents are happily mar ried, we moved when the neighborhood crimes increased, and they kept me as secure as possible. They did the best as parents can do. My definition of sociality was just surface. I made friends by fitting into a huge hearing world from being in a small classroom of  3 other deaf classmates. I was 4 years old. I have been happy with being popular simply just knowing so many people by their names from all nations. Then I discovered my own creativity and gifts of dance, art, and poetry which I had some advantage for myself for friendships. I knew I missed a lot of conversations, words, wisdom, knowledge, etc, that could have build my charatcher. WORDS can bring LIFE or DEATH. I had to experience things with my other senses by SIGHT, TOUCH, TASTE, and SMELL. Without hearing words of danger, I endured it physically. I encountered things I should not have expeirenced by force, by being rebellious, and by making mistakes. It contributed to my character in a negative and a positive way. Ive been ignored, guessed, and assumed in communications. When someone finally truly understood me, it was exciting having tighter friendships. Although, thinking back, I have never truly had CLOSE friends. I can think of a few friends I have became close to for a moment but the friendships did not last beyond elementary school, middle school, or high school. Most of it was eventually exhausting, labeled, and judged. I had friends who were Deaf that I was more comfortable with, however, it was like long distance relationships, they lived all over Wisconsin and united states. I have a lot of cousins and I became very close with few of my cousins. We grew apart because of individual priorities.

I met my BEST FRIEND right after high school. My world made sense with him in it. He HEARD MY HEART. I revolved my decisions and choices upon his. Together we Grew into adulthood and established a strong relationship. Our first son Isaiah gave us ambition. We dreamt of a future of security, joy, and peace. Countless Negative influences, situations, problems, tried to define us from the beginning of our relationship. VICTORY was declared in our relationship. We were two and became ONE. Together we STILL are being transformed individually supporting, encouraging, and loving each other. All the various friendships that I have had growing up, I am truly happy with my HUSBAND and all the sadness in a friendship of a distant memory in my past is washed away.

I've got to share that I have always found ways to apply my emotions, confusion, desires, and ideas into poetry, and ART. There really was a place within for ART to bring me happiness. I LOVE to be focused and just completely realease. My heart and mind were combatiable flowing together and out through the tips of my fingers. My SONS Isaiah and Jordan have also developed various ARTISTIC skills.

When I think of the people who surrounded me while I was growing up and who I CHOOSE to surround myself with now, I am forever thankful because I would not be where I am today if I didn't experience all that I have. Both good and bad. Ironically my husband and I share so much similarities in our childhood experiences. We want to teach our children Isaiah, Jordan, and Nathan how Jesus has been a indescribable influence in our lives. Jesus has truly made a crystal clear image of where we want to go. In the midst, I strive to display GRACE.



Who am i?

My first blog!

"Mama hold", I said to my 1 year old son. He brought his little self wobbling side to side with his arms extended out and his hands open reaching to be picked up. I held him gently rocking back and forth on my old rocking chair. I watched him move his lips with his breath and his eyes closing so softly. I could also feel his heartbeat and his voice humming :) It never ceases to amaze me how he is such a WONDER. All of my children are! The more I get older and with each child I bear, I am always learning how to appreciate them all individually everyday. When my 1 year old fell asleep, the brainstorming began. How do I put all these thoughts in order? So I began talking to God and he told me exactly what I needed to know.

I have started so many projects my heart desired but it can be time consuming, distractions occurs randomly, laziness happens because im so tired, procastinations from people saying things like, hey u will have more time when the kids are older. I know how much I dislike the word BUT and EXCUSES. I have been encouraged and inspired in so many different ways but (ugh but) I always end up not finishing something I started. God knows me very well and when I read a friend's BLOG I immediately got extremely inspired like never before. It is PERFECT for me! Exactly what I need to be doing. Blogging will continuously give me instant motivation to complete projects to share all because UTIMATELY I truly want to be an INSPIRATION to others just as I was inspired!

It STILL really is a bee sting to my side when I was told that I would have more time when the kids were older. I don't want to think about them being the reason why I put off my projects so I have decided to INCORPORATE them into my projects!!! This blog (motivation) will share the projects that I have started and will FINISH with my children and with my husband. I do understand how that it is ok to be tired sometimes, to have lack of ambition or appetite, or distractions occurs randomly. I have to remind myself to advoid excuses and procasination. The Blog will definately take that bee sting out of my side and smooth out the edges. YAY for BLOG and I will slowly type all my brainstorms into an organization. Here is a list of some of the projects that I have started and I will also share other things as well that is simply positivity and INSPIRATIONAL.

Poetry
Art, drawings, photography, painting
Books
Dreams
All natural remedies
Recycling
Coupons
Makeup
Hairstyles
Organization
The list goes on

Thank God for leading me to this Blog and that I am finally going to be able to finish things that I start. :)